I came to a conclusion the other day. That we keep far too much from each other. People get so surprised by others and have this lack of trust, simply because people are flat out not being open and honest with each other. I'm not saying I am going to start going around telling the world secrets that people have confided in me. After all, those thoughts were confided in me, not the world. Myself on the other hand, I'm kinda over only telling people what they want to hear. I see absolutely no reason why I shouldn't hurt, laugh, love, and talk out loud. I'd rather know that nobody accepts me for an honest person, than live my accepted for things that are not entirely true, or are simply sugarcoated.
Anyhow, my current praises are to the fact that I have 2 jobs now. One being Sport Chalet in Temecula and the other being a mixing-pot of things for an Engineer.(Anything from running errands to website design). YoungLife is incredible. Inspiring, encouraging, and a boat load of fun all at the same time. My growth group is incredible, especially the guys. Being able to hurt out loud with them and be fully open, honest and trusting has been possibly the biggest blessing in some time. Family has been super supportive of my hobbies, and especially of me while I was in the recovery phase of losing my job and looking for others. Still burn too much free time on WoW, oh well. My biggest worries right now are making sure I finish out Palomar strong, and even more so start off strong wherever I end up in the fall. Still have not heard back from CSU Montery Bay, or CSU Long Beach. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed there. Biggest weight on my heart lately has been the continued breaking and failure to break, of sinful natured bad habits that are rooted in a time where I was choosing to walk my own road. Continuing to try and power through it all, even with trip-ups, stumbles and full on wipe outs. One of my closest friends is moving away in May, not super stoked about that. Fallbrook wont be the same without him around to hang out with. I think my bed just called my name so I am going to go see what it wants from me.
P.S. I dont remember the last time I went to bed before midnight, crazy. I blame this headache and being up for like 15 hours.
Ciao for now.
